February 2010
i fought the war, and the war won
night, and day, putting thoughts into motion. its hard. its so fucking hard. FUCK HARD, I DONT CARE IM STRONGER THAN THIS. this is just a moment of weakness. i’ll only allow this to be a moment of weakness. the only thing saving me from it all right now, is the infinite road that lies ahead, non figuratively speaking. the road im about to take, deep into pennsylvania, maybe? whever it leads,...
January 2010
oh yeah.
oh yeah, thats why.
JUST WANT TO HIDE IN MY FUCKING ROOM
i’m weak.
it hurts.
DONT BE ABITCH SUCK IT UP.
fuck. i’m going crazy
THE CALM DOESN'T SUIT ME.
IT DOESN’T SUIT ME AT FUCKING ALL.
the highs are high and the lows are low. the higher the high, the lower the low. maaaan are the lows low.
fuck popularity. i need to be entertained.
reqieum: a mass for a dead person.
Addiction, on your way to self- inflicted death. ever wonder if you realize it or not? is my behaviour destructive or am I just worrying too much. I think at some point, we get some kind of hint. not the kind of hint where your parents scream in your ear. they scream about everything in the goddamn world. but that feeling in your stomache where it goes, hey. I need to get it the fuck together. but...
movies
lolita
babel
the big lebowski
garden state
tropic thunder
time traveler’s wife
fantastic mr. fox
fuck you.
drives back. thanks bitch
figuring it out slowly. pet peeve, greatest drive:
being looked down upon
anxiety
truthfully, I dont love you like i did yesterday. but i cant help but still want you, do you want me too?
get your morals straight, who are you really. what do you believe in?
i believe in nothing, i’m boring, i have no beliefs, cuz i dont give a shit. THAT’S IT. or is it, this is the real me, but, dont I have beliefs? Dont i have opinions? fuck